So,
I am sitting here at Discount Tire, waiting for my car and thinking.
Today, the real world wins. This sucks. I want to be 10 again and play war in the woods with Keith. I don't want to worry about tread wear and finish my sales calls for the day. So good job world, today you have defeated me and have won.
In other news, I am dumped. Add one more to the list of special women moving many hours away from me in the greatness of a relevant relationship. It's hard not to feel like I wear a giant sign on my forehead that says "Let me love you then leave me". This shit gets old. I really liked this one. She was a good combo of literally everything I was wanting and a whole handfull of surprises.
Talking to a good friend, she informed me that I wear my heart WAY down my sleeve, which is a good thing, but you aren't in the same place as many of the girls I date. I wonder what place that is? I want to learn from someone, teach someone, care for someone and be cared for. Doesn't seem like that far away of a place....
I love the place I live, am good at my job, have great friends, but I am still feeling so completely empty. Almost without purpose, but I don't want to sound THAT pathetic.
Whatever, it's May in California and there are sensors to sell. At least I don't live in New Mexico.
A out
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i would fuck you so hard. don't worry man, shit will work out. i hate illusionary optimism, but i don't think you are a case of that. hang in there, some lucky piece of tail will find you and treat you the right way.
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